Dear Dear Friends

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…………………..My Dear Friends…………..I am so sorry to have to write to you with this heartbreaking news………..My Heart, my Soul, the Love of my Life, my Wonderful Beautiful Jac passed away on December 12th, at 3:50 in the afternoon. I don’t even know what to say, because I am completely shattered. I don’t know how I will, or if I can ever recover. I miss her so much, all I do is cry…..

I know in my heart she would want me to make this very brief, but she deserves so much more than a sentence or two…..so my darling please forgive.

We found out a year and a half ago, July 2016 that Jac had cancer. How could this be!? Jac never smoked and lived a completely healthy life style. Jac had heart problems. That was part of her family history, but not cancer. When we got this shocking and horrific news we went right to Boston Mass General where we know the head of Oncology, Dr. Alice Shaw. Jac was fast tracked, and after many tests and studies, Dr. Shaw started Jac on a drug, and miracle of miracles it worked, and it worked fast. Within 12 days Jac was  feeling well enough to come home. She improved quickly, and Dr Shaw told us they were the best scans she had ever seen for someone who was on this drug for so short a time. For a year all was well, Jac was back modeling at QVC, and everything seemed normal and right with the world…..She was able to do everything she had done before. She felt great. We were so relieved…..We even went this past June to our favorite Island, Anguilla, where this photo was taken, and we were so happy….Life was good and we were so thankful. She had thought she would never see Anguilla again, and here we were, basking in the beautiful sunset………..We were in heaven.

Little did we know. This past August Jac started to feel unwell, and we learned the pill had stopped working and the cancer had returned.

Jac was devoted to her Mother….her “Mommy”, and her Mommy was devoted to her. They were one heart and one soul. I have never, and will probably never see a mother and daughter as close as they were….and I’m sure they are in each others arms as I write this. Her Mom moved in with us and lived with us for many years. When Mom passed Jac kept her room exactly as it was, as if she had never left. It has been that way ever since…… Every morning and every evening Jac wrote to her Mom in her journals, sitting in her Mom’s room in a wicker chair, covered in a crocheted blanket of the American flag her mother made, looking through the window at the Long Island sound. Looking at the same view her Mom had looked at for all those years. It gave Jac peace. I too have started doing the same thing. I have never kept journals, but now I write to Jac each morning and every night, or when ever I feel she’s slipping away from me…It helps me to feel close to her…It helps me to write to her….to tell her stories. She loved when I told her stories……The last month of Jac’s life she kept saying to me, ” you must keep a routine, it’s important to keep a routine. You must work and keep busy or you will fall into a black deep abyss, and I don’t want that for you, please promise me this.” I promised, but it is so hard not to fall into the darkness…….. Much of my work was joyful because I knew she was there, and a big part of it. I have not been able to walk into my studio since she left me……She kept doing her Facebook page and insisted that I take photos of the newest styles on her so she could post them to you…….even when she was in terrible pain. I said, “Hon you don’t have to do this”, but as weak as she was she said, “I can’t disappoint my friends”. She truly loved you all very much…..So, for those who think, as I have read on the Linea Forum, that meaningful, heartfelt relationships can’t be made by communicating for over 17 years on Facebook or blogs or fashion shows on QVC, I say to them “you are so so wrong”, all you need is an “open giving, and loving  Heart”, and Jac gave, gave, gave, expecting nothing in return. For those who think that what we have both done is for business purposes, I say “shame on you.”………Jac and I both knew the love that was, and is shared between all of us was true, and real……………I will never address this again.

I kept her home for as long as I could and at Thanksgiving she asked if I we could have our Christmas early. I said “of course Hon, anything you want”……so I put all the decorations up, and everything looked beautiful for her. We had our Christmas…….When she finally had to leave our home, and went into the hospital, I never left her for one second……..She had hoped for snow. She wanted to see snow again, and on that Saturday, December 9th, God was good and gave her her wish. It was a beautiful snow fall, and she was so happy…….On the 11th when Jac, was getting weaker and weaker, she knew in her heart that all hope of recovery was gone. She looked at me, held my hand, and said “Lou, please tell me the truth”. I said to her “Hon, I have never lied to you, and I never will”. We held each other and she asked me all the hard questions……all the things I could never say on my own. After all of her questions were answered she told me ” I have loved you from the first time I saw you, it was love at first sight for me. Lou I never want to leave you…….but it’s time for me to go to my Mommy, I want to go home to Mommy”……I told her it was alright, and to give Mom a big hug and a kiss. Jac had told me I was her Mother’s angel…..I was the only one her Mom trusted to take care of her precious baby…………………Jac passed away in a beautiful room with all of the things she wanted with her. She had no pain. It was peaceful and serene, and I held her close. I knew she was at last in her Mommy’s loving arms.

I sat in her Mom’s room after Jac passed and asked Jac for guidance….The days were going by and I hadn’t said a word. I knew everyone was so concerned and worried for us……so I talked to Jac and WE made the decision to wait until after Christmas to let everyone know…We did  not want to make it a sad day for anyone. Please forgive me if my delay in posting this has caused anyone pain. I never meant to hurt anyone by my silence. When is it the right time to have to say these words?……I still can’t believe I’m writing them.

One day Jac and I will be together again. I know this for sure…….I know I will miss her and want her with me every moment of the life I have left…..I must believe that she is beside me and I’m always looking for her messages and signs…..Jac and I had many adventures together and took many journeys……Our physical journey has now ended, but I know in my heart our spiritual journey has just begun……….Even so…..It is so terribly hard.

I want to thank all those who knew what was happening for the last year and a half and kept our wish not to let anyone know. I want to thank my friends at QVC for being my advocate through this horrible period of time, and for the help and love they provided. I want to thank Dr. Alice Shaw and Dr. Jessica Lin at Boston Mass General for giving Jac that precious year of feeling “normal” and healthy again. I especially want to thank Dr. Caleb Moore, our doctor here in Greenwich, for being at our home at a moments notice, and for taking charge of Jac’s care when he knew I could no longer give her the care she needed. Mostly, I want to thank my family and her closest friends, who she loved so much, and were there for her at the end. They made it possible for Jac to leave this world surrounded by their love. I will be forever grateful….. Jac was an extremely private person. We didn’t have many friends….out of choice……. All we ever wanted or needed was each other, our babies, and our home by the sea. We would call our home…..”Our separate peace”, where nothing could disturb or touch us or harm us…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………….

This post is meant for YOU and YOU alone. I know Jac would think I have already said too much. She always said I talked too much, but I could go on and on taking about the love of my life……..Please do NOT re-post this message that I’m sending to you on any other social media……Not on the QVC boards or Facebook. I know that this news will spread quickly, but I beg you to keep our privacy the best you can, and if you must speak, speak of the Love you have for Jac.

I, with all of my heart, and I know with all of Jac’s heart, want to thank all of you who have become Dear Dear Friends over these passed years. Your concern, caring and love shines though, and I know I will need all of you more than ever.

I feel there is a hole in my chest where my heart used to be. A terrible emptiness that will never go away, but I also know my heart must still be there , because it’s full of love for my Jac…….Before Jac came into my life I was a very lonely person. I had many many friends, but I still felt this terrible loneliness…………Jac taught me what love was all about, and it was Jac who taught me how to love…………………………………There will never be another like her……………….not for me……………..not ever………..My only solace is that we will be together again.

45 Responses to “Dear Dear Friends”


  • Dearest Louis and Jac,
    I am just now hearing of Jac’s passing. Words cannot express my deep sorrow at this news. Although it’s been years since I left QVC, I have always held both you and Jac close to my heart. I cherish you both always. Sonja xo

  • Dearest Louis, I have been a long, long fan of yours and your beautiful wife, Jac…I was absolutely heartbroken for you when I read this news today. May God bless you and your memories during such a difficult time. Warm hugs and many blessings as you begin new days.

  • I just learned of your beloved Jac’s passing. I am saddened and shocked. I thought you were the perfect pair – your beautiful classy clothing and Jac so elegantly modeling them on QVC. Please know our hearts break along with you. Our thoughts and prayers are with you.

  • Dearest Louis, what can one say at a time like this. Words are never enough but I hope you find some comfort in all the warm words from your Linea ladies. My thoughts and prayers are with you at this most difficult of times. Please accept my deepest condolences.

  • Dear Louis,

    Please know that you and Jac are in my prayers. Please take care of yourself.

    Pam

  • Dear Louis,
    Today I decided to wear the cowl swing sweater in the rhubarb color and to accent it I chose the brights beaded necklace. In our church we share the sign of the peace and greeted each other with blessings for the New Year today. The lady behind me said,”You know when you turned around and I saw your necklace, it was so beautiful. It’s just spectacular!” I thanked her and told her that I wanted a little sparkle to light up the day and decided to wear it. That lead me to consider the blessing that I had to be able to wear such lovely items created from the mind of a spectacular and gifted designer…YOU! You are the gift that keeps giving every time each of us Linea Ladies wears your beautiful and creative designs. After reading each of these tributes to you and your beloved Jac, I know how much you have both affected the lives of your fans and the gifts you have shared with us all. Your love and devotion that you have had for each other and your lives’ work shines beautifully in each work of art and each entry and photo on your blog. Thank you for this so much. May the New Year bring you the blessings, comfort and renewed joy you richly deserve and have shared with all of us!

  • My Dear Louis

    This took my breath away! My heart goes out to you because I know how much you loved Jac. Her Spirit will always be with you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers during this most difficult time.

    Peace and Love

    Emma

  • LDO, I wanted to share a few memories I have of Jac. About this time of year I would get together with Jac and we would plan out my girlfriend-goes-to-the-awards -show wardrobe. I’d shoot snaps of me in dressing rooms in various gowns and she (and you) would give the yes or no. And, she was always right steering me toward stunning creations that were always just a little outside my comfort zone. Jac always picked out my shoes (blue! bronze! pink! never black!) and gave me all kinds of awesome model advice on how to look pulled together at events. My favorite was to slip a dry cleaner plastic bag under my dress so it wouldn’t wrinkle in the car and just pull it out upon arrival. She taught me to sand the soles of my new heels and to coat them inside and out with hair spray so they would not slip. When BF wanted to buy me a new necklace to wear to one of the events, he (behind my back) sent pictures to Jac from the jewelry store of various choices so she could help him decide. It remains my favorite piece of jewelry. Jac didn’t need to do any of this, but she was so good to me and so generous. By helping me look the part–beautiful, elegant, classy–Jac helped me to feel confident when I had to walk into those situations that were so intimidating and so scary. I will miss her more than I can say. We are all here to do our best in the time we are given. I would say she used every minute very well.

  • Dearest Louis,
    I am saddened beyond belief to hear of Jac’s passing. Through tears, I read your generous letter and I thank you so much for letting me into your special life together. I send love, prayers and healing thoughts as you navigate unspeakable grief. You will be together again and until then I hope you can feel all of the love being sent to you. And to Jac, your lovely presence will be with me each time I hear your name or wear the clothes I watched you model, as only you could.
    Diana

  • Louis

    My heart goes out to you, your family and those closest to Jac. She was such a lovely woman, full of grace and style.

    When you feel overwhelmed by your sorrow, please read back through these posts. Then you will feel the deep affection that we all have for you and Jac. And I hope that the warmth of our friendship will surround you and carry you through the dark times.

    “So when tomorrow starts without me don’t think we’re far apart, for every time you think of me, I’m right here in your heart.” [When Tomorrow Starts Without Me, by David Romano].

    Michelle

  • My Dear Louis,
    Sending good wishes for 2018 and hoping your creative juices are going to be back. Linea Ladies love to fill their closets. I need another house for my collection.
    Much love,
    Beryl

  • Alicia de Colombí-Monguió

    Dearest Louis, reading your moving words I was reminded of my Luis’s death. We were inseparable. Every page he wrote and corrected details, every page I wrote he analyzed and perfected. He died of cancer after a very long illness. I put his bed by a large window looking at the garden. Our three bichons surrounded and play with him. During the last week I stayed by his bed holding his hand, and didn’t noticed when Luis passed away. Then I fell in shock, and don’t remember anything of that first week after his death. My friends tell me that at the funeral I read a poem of his close friend, Auden;
    CONTINUE PART 2

    • Alicia de Colombí-Monguió

      He was my North, my South, my East and West,
      My working week and my Sunday rest,
      The stars are not wanted now: put out every one;
      Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun;
      Pour away the ocean and sweep up the wood.
      For nothing now can ever come to any good.
      Ten years have gone by now. He is always with me, but no longer painfully. It is the sweet certainty that enduring love is victorious over all. I knew he wanted me to go on writing. It wasn’t easy, but since his death I managed to finish two books
      True, when I travel it is no longer the same because now I only see things through my eyes while in his presence I also saw everything also through his.When I cook there was the delight to await his surprise. The first crocus flower without his welcome and then early spring looses its tender radiance. But time passes , and although it is no balsam, it has taught me to live with the presence of his absence. He is never far away, he will never be. I am telling you my experience because perhaps this would happen to you, dear friend. Jac will be with you no matter what, because she loves you so much, as much as you love her. And such love never dies. She loved your creations as Luis loved my books. They love them still, and they expect us to bring them to life for them Thus they will rejoice, and we will tell them, Beloved, this is for you, always for you. Dear Louis, I will ask a Mass to be said for Jac, and tell her to pray for us who will miss her unique grace forever. May the Lord bless you, Alicia

  • Dear Louis,

    I am so sorry, my heart is breaking for you. Jac was the epitome of elegance and class and I will miss watching her on QVC. I always say our loved ones never leave us, they are just on the other side of the clouds. Love and God’s peace to you.

    Theresa

  • Louis ~
    I am so very sad for your loss of Jac. Your letter is so heartfelt and loving and your darling Jac is so very proud of you.
    You are such a sweet and soecial person and one can feel your sense of pain and loss. As you grieve, know you have a lot of people who love and care for you. I live in Northern California and always a friend if you ever need to speak. I mentor cancer patients as my son was a cancer patient, age 19 with internal melanoma. We all have a journey and you and Jac walked yours together in the love of life. There certainly is no guarantee for tomorrow but I hope you can look back at your lives together with nothing but great and happy memories.
    God Bless you Louis.
    You and Jac are both in my prayers.
    Corky

  • Dear Louis,
    I am so sorry for your loss. I have watched you an Jac from the very first day that you were on QVC. I absolutely love your designs and am so happy that you are there for us. I always waited for Jac to come out so I could see how the outfit looked on her. She was a true professional for sure a very beautiful lady. Your love for each other was always evident to me as the viewer. I am still in shock that she is gone and cannot begin to express my sorrow for this loss. Our QVC family will miss her terribly. I can only offer you my thoughts, cry as you must because you need to, don’t let others who are uncomfortable with your feelings of loss stop you from grieving. Take time to do as you must, everyone grieves differently so there is no right or wrong way to act of feel. I wish you well and will pray for you and Jac. This is going to take time Louis, take your time. Love for both of you, Teresa.

  • This poem has helped me. I hope it will help you.

    [i carry your heart with me(i carry it in]
    By E. E. Cummings
    i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
    my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
    i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
    by only me is your doing,my darling)
    i fear
    no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
    no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
    and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
    and whatever a sun will always sing is you

    here is the deepest secret nobody knows
    (here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
    and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
    higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
    and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

    i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

    “[i carry your heart with me(i carry it in]” Copyright 1952, © 1980, 1991 by the Trustees for the E. E. Cummings Trust, from Complete Poems: 1904-1962 by E. E. Cummings, edited by George J. Firmage. Used by permission of Liveright Publishing Corporation.
    Source: Complete Poems: 1904-1962 (Liveright Publishing Corporation, 1991)

    • Dear G…..I am familiar with this poem, but I haven’t heard it in a long time. That you for bringing it back to me……it says it all.

  • Louis, Thank you for sharing this beautiful letter about your lovely Jac. She is in heaven now with her Mommy but she is also with you as your forever heavenly angel! I am sure you will find as time goes on that there are things that happen which she will give you a sign she is right beside you in spirit. I found this true when my lovely mother passed away 9 years ago June 2nd. She is always giving me signs she is there beside me.
    I will keep you in my prayers and send you friendly hugs. Please try to do as Jac would have wanted for that will help you to manage the situation of the change she has taken in your life from physically being with you to spiritually angel with you !
    I put a picture of my mother in rooms I sat in and felt she was there that really assisted me to manage my sorrow. The pain never goes away but you will learn to walk in a different light with Angel Jac !

  • Louis,
    Your words proved your deep and spiritual love for Jac.
    Thank you for sharing the life of a special woman. May your memories last and the pain lessen.

  • Dear Louis,
    How lucky you and Jac were to have each other for so many joyous years. You will never get over your loss but you will learn to live with it. Continue to live your life as your dear Jac wanted you to. That’s how you will honor her memory. My deepest condolences.

    Nancy

  • Louis,
    Thank you for sharing such a beautiful lady with us. I am so very sorry for your loss. Your caring relationship was always obvious and I know Jac’s love and the love of our Lord will carry you in the days to come.
    Please accept my prayers.

  • Louis I an devastated. You ans Jac were like wonderful friends. I leave you with this
    thought, “Whe weep for those that will not weep again” I love you

  • Louis, you dear sweet man, how I wish I could reach out and give you some comfort. Words are never sufficient. I wept on and off for hours, for the looks of my firmed, Jac, who reached out to me when my own mother died in my arms; for you and your grief( and for the refreshed of loss and grieving. Certain people and losses can put you right back into those heart-piercing moments because of how special they are. I’ve begun to compose a condolence letter. I am hoping Studio Park will forward it to you. There are moments when pen and paper are the best way to express the heart. You are both loved.

  • Dear Mr Dell’Olio

    My thoughts and prayers are with you. Your tribute was beautiful.

  • Dear Louis,
    So very, very sorry for your loss. Heartbreaking. “And now may the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make His face to shine upon you and be gracious unto you. And may God give you His peace in your going out and in your coming in, in your lying down and in your rising up, in your labor and in your leisure, in your laughter and in your tears… Until you come to stand before Jesus in that day in which there is no sunset and no dawning. Amen.”

  • Dear Louis,
    I am so sorry for your unimaginable loss of your beloved wife. We all feel like we know you through this blog and your many visits to QVC. I have countless items from your line. I will continue to cherish them and think fondly of Jac every time I wear them. I will keep you in my prayers. God bless you…

    Sincerely, Terri

  • Dear Louis,
    What a beautiful loving tribute to your Jac. The wonderful closeness you shared with her and will continue to share with her is inspiring. You two were such a great pair, and your love for each other and appreciation and respect for each other was evident in every TV viewing and in your many posts here.
    All my sympathy,
    Anne

  • Dear Louis.

    I am so sorry for your loss. I always enjoyed seeing you and Jac on QVC. What a grand lady she was! When I saw her I always thought “Oh, I’d love to look like that”. I know you are feeling very sad now and I don’t know what to say but I will be thinking of you. Bless you Louis.

    Sincerely,

    Carol Robinson

  • Our Dear Louis

    Your words and love for Jac are beautiful and you have my deepest sympathy. Jac was beautiful inside and out and we will miss her I loved watching both of you together I wish you peace and will remember you and Jac in my prayers. Thank you for sharing with us. My thoughts are with you during this difficult time

    Sincerely

    Vicki

  • So sorry for your loss. Rest in peace Jac. We hope you can take some comfort in your treasured and beloved memories your shared with Jac. God Bless. Will keep you and Jac in our thoughts and prayers.
    Joan,Marion and Marilyn

  • Such beautiful words. My deepest sympathy for your loss. My thoughts are with you during this truly difficult time.

  • Louis, After reading your post I have wept and pondered to try to take it all in. I am so sorry for your devastating loss.I am married to my very best friend and the love of my life also. We found out over a year ago he has Parkinson’s’and he has progressed very rapidly so I feel your pain. I tell him all the time “there is no me without you” Thank you for sharing your heartfelt feelings with us. I will be lifting you up often to God for his comfort and peace that only He can give. You are very loved as was Jac. A very special couple indeed.

  • Dear Louis, My heart hurts for you. Wishing you peace and the comfort of all the beautiful memories you have with Jac. Not many in life experience what you and Jac meant to each other. “How lucky you are to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard”. XOXO

  • That is such a beautiful photo of Jac, glistening in the sun like an angel. My heart is broken upon learning of the sorrow and ache you must now endure. The love you and Jac shared has been a public inspiration, a superb example of an honorable marital union based not only with the pitter patter of love, but genuine respect and admiration. You are blessed to have been able to live that. It seems completely unjust that it should be taken away, and how I wish that I could spare you the angst of facing your future with only the memories you cherish. The union of Jac and Louis heartened, gave joy, to a great many who now share your grief. May the angels guide your next days.

    Thank you for sharing your heart with us.

    With love and admiration, Sonia

  • So so sorry to hear this. I have been wondering where you were and hoping for the best but this is the absolute worst. You are in my thoughts and prayers. May you find the strength to continue on in these dark times.

  • Deepest sympathy. Very few people have such a great love in their life. Our Thoughts and prayers are with you.

  • Zoe se Mas, greek for Life to us. May your beautiful Jac’s Memory be Eternal and peace to you knowing she is without pain and with her Mommy as they both watch over you!
    With Love.

  • Dear Louis, so terribly sorry for your loss. I know you will miss her always and she will be in your heart forever. God bless you and keep you until you meet her again.

  • Dear Louis,
    I read your message yesterday and was in utter shock and in disbelief. I couldn’t help but shed tears. I am so sorry to hear this news. Never did I believe that you or Jac blogged for business purposes. You and Jac were dedicated professionals with a genuine interest in pleasing others. I know Jac will guide you and her words of encouragement to take care of yourself will prevail. Please take care of yourself. It is what Jac wants.

    Sincerely,
    Dawn

  • Our Dear Louis; I was unable to read your beautiful letter to us at one sitting for the tears that were streaming down my face. I believe that where there is love, there is God, as God is love. Jac will always be with you as her love will always be inside you in every fiber of your being. This love is also in your adored girls and in the home the two of you created together. And of course God will be with you every step of the way as you grieve her loss. Jac touched so many of us, including my husband Ray, with her kindness, friendship, and her generosity. Do please know that you have the heartfelt support of all of us here. Love, Barbara

  • Jac and Louis…such a beautiful Love Story. Thank You for sharing, Melody

  • Dear Louis
    My deepest sympathy on Jac’s passing. There are no words. She was a lovely beautiful woman who, I am sure, had a wonderful happy life with you. Thank you for sharing with us. Again my deepest sympathy.

  • I accidentally caught you presenting your clothes on QVC a few years ago. I was not familiar with you then.
    Beautiful Jac had just walked out looking spectacular, and you said something like, “Now that’s how I want my woman to look. . . this is what I want to come home to.”
    That really caught my attention, and I’ve been watching you two ever since, and my closets are filled with your clothes. Nothing better.
    Jac was so very special, and I considered her a friend although we never met. So this is heartbreaking news for me too.
    You will be in my thoughts and prayers.
    The following paragraph is from a novel I once read. I saved it because it spoke to me about losing loved ones.
    This is for Jac:
    “Life is a butterfly, delicate and beautiful.
    You cup it in your hand gently, but it is always ready to fly.
    Your life is an opportunity to dance with it.
    When it wants to fly, you must watch it wing away and love its beauty.”

  • Louis,
    Your words are beautiful and relay the deep love you have for you wife. I lost my husband 3 years ago and it is so difficult. I am so happy that you have the peace of knowing that you will be with Jac again, just as she is with her Mother. It will take time, and your pain will lessen, but you will always have that place in your heart for her. God Bless You, and Godspeed to Jac.
    Sincerely,
    Bobbi

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